To anyone who may be still reading this blog, I apologize
for my lapse in writing. Facebook has taken away all my blogging time. Many
things have happened. The summary is that life changes quickly and right when
you think things are calming down they often don’t. Sometimes, the best anyone
can do is leave the pieces and move the fuck on.
And that is just what I’m doing here at Gautam Nagar.
Over New Year vacation, I went to Haflong, where some of my
oldest friends still live. There I discovered that I was oblivious of
dislike that certain people had for me. It was devastating to step back and
look at the situation. Like,when someone hits your car, there is no in between
moment. One moment you are minding your own business and the next moment your
world is slightly altered. It had a profound impact and I doubt I will ever
forget it. A gun goes off, life changes…you react.
At this stage of my life, I’m not single. I am seeing
someone who impressed the heck out of me. He is a gentle doctor with glasses
and beautiful nose. And an introvert who allows me a surprising amount of
freedom. It was a decision I had been putting off for years. But now I think, relationship
is an interesting endeavor. You have someone to depend on to make rational decisions.
And I’m happy.
In January, I adopted a stray dog. I named him Zed and he is
this fascinating little creature with so much energy. Coming from a street, he
needed health examination, vaccines and training. I think, this is just the
beginning. I am amazed at how terrible and wonderful intensive times with a dog
can be. His demands and whines stretch me to points where I am sure I must
snap…and then I don’t … and I’m amazed. Sometimes he’ll just curl up and sleep
on or around me, I listen to him breathe, stroke is head, and perform as a
human pillow. It is, in every sense, the best of times.
This past month, I ceaselessly cleaned up Zed poop and piss,
gave him bath, walked around and screamed every time he nibbled or chewed my
shoes. But I realize in all the pain, there is growth and bond too.
Will post a photo of me and Zed in my apartment when I've transferred them from my phone to PC.And that is all for now. I will post whenever I can.
