I am tired and it is late, but it seems this is when my blogging takes place.
It's amazing how quickly time flies.Although the last couple of months have been somewhat discouraging and heartbreaking professionally, they have also served as a season of change, hope, and renewal. The time that I spent purging what needed to be released from my non rewarding life.It’s as if the old had passed and the new will come.When decisions that alter the course of your regular life have to be made, damn it causes such a rift in your soul.
My life has obviously not been very regular lately though I have enjoyed some extra rest.And I realise it will not last too long and will wish for days like this shortly after I start a job again.And I'm half happy and half sad about the coming of festivals.
As a child,I was certain that every year Goddess Durga visited the earth this season.It's crazy how beliefs change with time.Although I must say, I am of the belief that God is just and excuse for people to boost their faith and keep going.I used to love September for it's mystical style of festival frolic until it decided to spook me with the ugliness of death,loss, pain and separation.I still can't believe Rohan is dead.I still don't know how dad's face must have looked when he shut his eyes permanently.I will never be able to enjoy Diwali in my life again.It will always remind me of how death shut all the lights in our house and left grief.Glimpse of ugliness in my early adulthood.STOP!
Anyway,I was at Barista after so many days today with Abha and Sudeep...sharing life.I want to be there for friends although I seem to have no control over my expression...some things just come out like WORD VOMIT.Love sucks!Doubly so when carrying others' burden.I am glad that I'm seen as a "friend". But at the same time I feel so removed; I'm not sure how to get close so that I can make a difference.
Does everything in life require analyzing, balance, and best effort??
I guess I need to calm down. lol.
Oh, how I love the smell of coffee.
THE END.
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I am sorry about Rohan though I have no idea who he is. Losing close ones are always painful.
Now talking more on your views, lady – seems like you have a lot of time to bisect and dissect your past life. As they say, “life is a tragedy when you live it and a comedy when you see it.” Life f**ks and sucks all. But at least, with so much of f*cking and s*cking, you’ll have a great sex life!!
I think I’ll stop now. I pretty much suck at this pep-talk business.
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