Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Crohn's Survivor...

I was diagnosed with Crohn's Disease in October 2010. Life hasn't been great, but I survived. And if I have to stay here in Haflong. The only bright spot is my loving mother and beautiful weather.I'm unemployed since one year.I remember saying that I can go anywhere in the metro city and probably get a job within 3 days since IT is such a strong field. Perhaps this is God telling me not to be so smarmy and confident. Well, He doesn't have to worry about that anymore!! I feel utterly useless without employment, something to validate my worth as a person.I'm deathly afraid of being told I'm not fit enough to work full time, let alone night shifts. Then mom also tells me that she'd like me not to have to work full-time.

Yes, at times I really miss being employed,the bustle of the daily commute, being productive, eating butter chicken for lunch( more dinner like )since I mostly worked night ant social interactions with colleagues.

I guess I need to "let go" of the anger and frustration that comes from losing one's career.
Enough said for now. Later..