Sunday, November 29, 2015

Lately I've been going on long walks. It's so magical. Walking has become my connection with the universe. I feel energized, inspired, relaxed and at peace.

It's like stepping and surrendering to the universe to allow things to unfold as they will. I needed that approach after my last unrewarding stint at CoCubes where I was guilty of spending too much time focusing on building a successful business trying to reach a type of success just for the sake of reaching it. But here's a shift in energy, because I am stepping up in a bigger way. Am I willing to do what it takes to make the difference? Am I ready to play the game for real? Well, I'm learning to say yes and no appropriately.

That means things need to get a little messy and unsteady first. That some things need to fall apart and burn to the ground to make space for what's next. And I'm willing, wholeheartedly committed, to walk through whatever is asked of me next.

Lovingly Yours,
Nilanjana

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

I was doing really well with the whole 'being indifferent' thing.  Then for some reason, I’m hit by mild insomnia and mood swing and started on this really bad track and wanting things to be different.

I keep telling myself this in hopes that at some point it will eventually sink in, and I will finally, fully and completely realize that twin flames aren't meant to be together. And these are countered with the thoughts of how it all just doesn’t add up. It's the little things that I'm remembering that's making me mushy.

Let what is meant to be, be.

Monday, July 13, 2015

Happy Monsoon....

With monsoon arrival I saw the world and the people around rushing, pushing, driving, forcing itself to a destination and in the middle of all these I remained at peace through all the complexities and the compulsive need to move. My little Zeddie boy couldn't be any happier than to play in splashing water. We spent the Saturday afternoon feeling rain and chasing ball in the rain being perfectly content with our life. If there is anything I have learnt, it is to embrace the many gifts of nature- the ocean and it's glorious waves, the sound of rain, the wind blowing through our hair, the feeling of grass on our feet and to walk away with all beautiful stolen moments that belong to us and only us. And learning to be at peace, while surrounded by chaos.

Happiness is a way of life!


Thursday, June 25, 2015

Mini Agnesian Travelogue

So last December I travelled to Jaipur. Saw that it has a different character from Delhi. I saw that it is a city for people who enjoy simplicity. Jaipur seems to have held on to the past and it's history with it's appearance. It has a rocky appearance but not a good place to eat if you are a non vegetarian. The town bursts with creativity from musicians to painters which makes the city buzz with energy. 

Take a look at pictures..







Goa...what do I say about Goa. Though I'm a girl who loves grass, I've also had my mind calmed by the solitude that a sandy beach offers. My eyes landed on the waves from sea and awed my mind in the wonders of the ocean. The light breeze kept me cool as I watched the sun set and the seemingly whispers of the waves washed my legs. I appreciated each layer of the wave as I realised I still have only explored a small part of this beautiful world. As much as I love exploring new places, life is meaningless without friends. I want to travel more and see more places. I know I might go completely broke, but at least I'll go broke seeing beautiful places and doing what I like.




I miss blogging and will try to do some posts whenever I can.


Tuesday, June 2, 2015

Dealing with an Asshole

There's this manipulative jerk who is getting away with abusing employees. He makes weird accusations, takes credit while redirecting blame, and trusts no one. At times it seems like he likes to create chaos or secrecy on purpose to keep team off balance so they never know what's going on. He never tells me I did a good job, but will come down on me for the slightest mistake. He likes to set people up to fail and is a psychopath with untreated mental condition. But then, there is nothing like an abusive workplace to make you think about what's important in life.

You tell me to swallow my pride?! Fuck you and GO TO HELL

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

Mama's Boy


The grown man who can't seem to make important life decisions without consulting his mummy. That grown man whose mother has such strong hold over him that it affects his personal relationships adversely. That grown man who needs mummy's approval for EVERYTHING...

Why are some men, "Mama's boys"? *Sigh*


Sunday, April 5, 2015

In a nutshell...

Once again I've failed at keeping up with this blog. Well, today is Sunday and it’s a beautiful day here in Gurgaon. I've been busy! Between our clients, financial year end madness, dog stuff and then of course phone calls and video calls............life stays fun :)

Heera soi saraahiye

Sahe ghanan Ki choT

Kapat kurangee maanva
Parkhat nikra khot..




I had heard this song before, never knew the words but loved the melody I felt. Listening to this today and understanding each lyric broke my heart. I failed. I fail daily. We ALL fail daily. He loved his woman...........but he loved his creator as well. I just saw this and sobbed.

I know many people who think that loving someone means sitting around, holding hands and leading a perfect life. It's far from that, and yet envelops so much more as well. Life can be hard, people can be cruel, bad things happen.......but there is always a reason to go on. I can only hope that my time on earth is well spent. I want to love those in my life with all I have. I want to be that person without judgment. I should and can too.

In other interesting news, I was invited by a pet magazine to become a guest writer. I'll post more info when I get it. There are several exciting things that are 'in the works' for me......but I'm not one to count my eggs before they hatch, so more on that as it comes to fruition.

Ok, so yesterday we had a yearly business review meeting at work that lasted all day. WOW! I was overwhelmed at how all of us took off our goals and responsibilities and gotten through. C3 is a great group of folks to work with. We are excited to see where things go from here, and we are prepared for whatever the new financial year has for us and continue to impact the life of every student in our country.




This is my life in a nutshell!

Sunday, February 8, 2015

My 2 year old Zed is truly bonded with me. He nestles right up to me, sticks his head on the pillow and paws at my hand until I put the blanket over him.

Down the memory lane…

Down the memory lane I have had beautiful friends around me who were solely responsible for the eidetic memory I have. The memories have be...