Happy Mother's Day !

It's Mother's day today and i'm tryin' to think of all the good things that she's done for me. I keep thinking "it's ok, I have loving parents, I have my sisters" But what I keep forgetting is to express my love.I may not have said this ever but Mom....I really love you lots.
I'm wondering what 'Hard thing' God has planned for me. But at least I have learned not to complain about house work because my Mom told me last time "Junjuna, do hard things and do it well".I'm not sure whether it's because of her endless support, or whether it's the memories of my childhood with her- but I really miss her.

She was always so proud of me that when I think back, it makes my heart break. Sitting here, now, in a place which I can't really call home.The pride she always felt for me is both tormenting and comforting. She is the reason I have never been afraid to try new things. Her trust in my ability is what has brought me around here.She is the one who has always told me to follow my heart. So thanks to her, I have lived and loved in the strangest places.I have followed my heart, and had it broken and never once have I thought of slowing down and not sharing my life and my love with the people I meet along the way.Perhaps now, at this age, I should know better, but then again, perhaps not.The last time I was with mom,we argued about something so ridiculous.I was against her open mindedness with intercaste marriage in the family.Perhaps , I forgot that what I'm today is because of her.I should have understood that by letting Dona free, she was doin' justice to her motherly love.

I recently went from planning and almost staying back in Assam to be with my family after all that unkempt phase of deceit here.
But here I am now, still working for Wipro and I am tryin' to love my job, which is good I guess, since I have to work only five days a week.

Wow... don't know where to begin thinking of all the madness that is going on here, I just want to give everyone proof of life. Let them know I am ok.
Lonely, but ok.
The kind of loneliness you only feel when you are surrounded by people.
Detached.
Like these words I am writing now.
Making no sense.

I have been so lazy with blogging plus internet speed in Assam sucks.Now that i'm back I will perhaps scribble more than I did last month.I couldn't get around to organizing the pictures from my trip, but I am tryin' my best to cover all ! And it's for all those net freaks and addicts who have been constantly requesting me to update my blog and unlock it.



As you can see, my my sister , our pet and I have already bonded. Quite a bit. I mean, how could we not? We are the super bitches :P





I'm so happy i'm finally home......yay !





It was really fun with Barbilee--the first time I've been in Silchar with Aunt Elveena।I gifted her a saree and she bought me a nightie in return.lol. It was quite a different environment from Delhi!! My sisters, cousins, niece, grandma, mom, dad.

My baby pine.....standing tall now. I've been kind of flattering myself to think that in just eight years they have grown so tall and I nurtured them.They pretty much know better what to do with themselves than I know for myself.

Raccoon --- we call her Muddimma।I haven't seen much action of hers because she sleeps all day like the employees of Indian call center do.One night while mom was feeding her,I called her name hoping that she would respond but she didn't seem to realize that I wanted to play with her.She twisted the tail and turned around :-(


This guinea pig is really alert and intelligent।Her name is Mozzo Guffu ।The first time she encountered me, she was aloof yet soooo cute :-)

बौउऊ---She is extremely cute and lovable। I can't say I've known a sweeter dog, actually. She likes to always be near me, and is happy to ride along in the car and hang out॥ When I am sitting on the couch watching a movie, she jumps up next to me and have her head rest on my lap. One night I woke up to a strange noise, only to realize it is her snoring with her head on my pillow.



Batto -- is pretty।And I actually hate to see her inside the cage.But she anyway didn't look distressed and was chirping away to glory......Oye !!

Finally, in the past 6 months I've felt good . It's been a hard struggle this year getting though the knots of life. It plagued me. And after so many requests I have decided to unlock tis blog cos i'm tired of answering why i've gone so private.So here I go...

It was supposed to be a rest . Donna's wedding was tough, and I didn't get home until 23rd after all the drama of rituals and blessing.I enjoyed it in the sense that it was good eye opener to me. I don't know how I would have done if I had to marry a foreigner.I just wanted to get it over with and go home. Enjoy the ride and some scenery along the way.
It was the first time I'd seen any hills this year. The drive was beautiful, and I tried to take it all in my head, especially after I was left in Delhi's chase group for so long.It wasn't long but the soft dirt now and then made it tough. Luckily, I could count on my goggles .But things are a little hazy in my memory now.:(

There was one weak bridge that we had to cross close to having to collapse, but my stubborn pride forced the cranks over in an agonizing struggle through thick wooden support and we made it to Haflong.

I've digressed! My stream of consciousness has meandered. I am talking about the hills and how I felt good for the first time this year! So back to it. I thought I would be exhausted from the battle ground tat i came from and a lack of sleep.At home, I'd actually doze off by 10 pm.And the day would begin fast,it took me a few laps to get going.

And then, in Kolkata, Munna & I headed towards the market for some sea food.We went to this lounge closest to his place , and ordered beer and prawn.Ate with great gusto but when it was time to pay the bill, it was painful. Damn !

Here in Delhi , i've been spring cleaning ever since I came back.What amazing weather compared to Silchar.And now , a clean house to get along with it.

I thought May would be a good moon for me.But a diagnosis of episcliritis said it all.

M yet to cover all my thoughts & experience.Theres lots more to jot.But I think I need my dose of coffee now....so i'll come back later for more.